It’ll be exactly one week in a few hours since we lost Jenna. Although I am coping, I’m still trying to come to terms with the loss. My mind is still in disbelief and denial. I still see and hear them. And although I know I am hallucinating from the grief of my loss, some websites that I have been reading about coping with pet loss, suggest that the spirit or the souls of the dogs are still in this house and they are trying to comfort me.
Today, my wife took Haru to cheerleading practice to practice for a special event next month. I decided to stay home, because I really just wanted some time to be alone and collect my thoughts. But I think I was too alone, because I kept hearing things all day. I heard Princess snoring like she normally does when she was asleep, and I could also hear them walking around the floors. I also found comfort laying on the floor, where both dogs spent most of their time. I felt as if they were laying their with me. Perhaps this is why my wife spent the entire week sleeping on the living floor. Maybe subconsciously she also felt as if they are still with us in spirit. Usually, I don’t believe in this kind of stuff, and I am usually more logically minded person rather than spiritual, but I definitely feel sense of presence (not all of the times) but sometimes. It makes me wonder if there is such thing as spirituality and an afterlife, are the dogs still here?
Princess and Jenna were somewhat famous among the Westie owners community in Japan. We use to go to a lot of events a long time ago and we would often see the same people, hence Princess and Jenna was like a household name like Terry and Lala, Wing, and Mint and Basil. They were all well known names within the community. When some of the owners learned that Princess and Jenna passed away, they were kind enough to send us flowers which I included in the dogs’ memorial. The memorial has gotten so big now, that I actually had clear everything off the shelved to fit everything. So, rebuilding and expanding the memorial actually helped be to take my mind off of things and was extremely helpful and therapeutic.
I’ve also gotten to the point where I was able to sit down with Haru, and watch old videos of the dogs. Haru loved doing this, because some of these videos we haven’t seen in years. It was the first time I had been able to laugh in days.
And finally, I have created a memorial page for the dogs on this site. I will probably be updating it from time to time with pictures and videos I find of the dogs.